Sunday, November 18, 2007

in your 30s?

It's funny how now your entering your 30's and you realize you have all these options. It's more than a mid-life crisis, it actually worse. It's across the board, you experience it moderately thought your life. You start to think about your job, hidden creativity, passion, and your voice. I mean it's incredible, the things you learn when you get excited about life. So back to your 30' s for some of you are about to get a divorce, because you finally realized who's been sleeping in your bed. That’s when your mate tell you that he hates it when you nag him about coming home late, after you've been waiting with dinner for the past four hours. He's too busy doing the things he always wanted to do meanwhile your home trying to please him in the kitchen. It's the never-ending battle of boy meets girl. He says you reminder of his mother. But what he's really saying is that he's tried of answering

The guilty trip and the cycle continues, but your almost 30 and that inner child is dying to make it right. You stop to access the situation and realize that maybe she's right; it's time to pick battles. "Over long toe nails?" (The practical brain). "When your almost 30 every moment is precious." It about letting him knows that the situation has not been resolved. The issue still remains that his toenails are cutting you up! Plain and simple, don’t' turn shit around and say the things you always wanted to really say to your mother.

Everybody goes through it husband and wife, friends, mothers, sisters, brothers, lovers, bootie buddy. It's a time of self- discovery, follow through, and second chances and discipline. It's worse than middle life because it's your first step. You start to spend time by yourself, and actually enjoy it. Everything is now about you. What you feel, how you express yourself, telling those what you like and don't all of a sudden you find yourself doing it. You realize that it's not that bad, people still hang around, they might not call for a few days but eventually they deal with it. People's feeling matter, but not more than yours. You can tell a motherfucker about himself. When it's now fours days since he said he would call you to confirm plans. But it's now Monday and you already had your weekend. You stayed home and took care of yourself; it didn't feel as bad as you thought it would. He leaves you a message " I'm sorry, I didn't call you, I had a very stressful weekend, and something came up". But yet he couldn't pick up that phone and tell you that. What is it with men, don't they know you’re almost thirty and your learning how to speak.

I'm not going dog out the men, because we can get pretty shady too. We have this newfound voice, and we want what we want. Then we end up in these situations "Look honey, it's been five months since "you know” and I don't think I would say no, but just for the record I find you sexually and physically attractive you just don't stimulate intellectually." Some may say you don't have to tell them everything, but that inner child sometimes takes over.

1 comment:

quin browne said...

sometimes, it happens 20 years after that.

you put it perfectly, though...

snap.